Today is a boring entry. I don't have much interesting to say...
Went for my gallium scan today. Took two hours. I took Ms. Sarah Hern with me, what a trooper! She sat in the waiting room for the two hours, poor thing!
Scans were simple, all I was required to do is not move. BORING!
Second scan I had to rest my arms above my head for 40 minutes. Holy crap it hurt! trying to put my hands back down was excruciating! The cameras came so close to my face at one point I thought it was going to crush my nose it was that close! We'll wait for next week to hear about results.
Ate at the Mongolian Grill for lunch, YUMMMM!!!!
Then a little retail therapy for sarah at White Oaks. Good times! too bad she forgot her phone in my car and I didnt notice until I was home... loser. :) Love you!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Monday, April 19, 2010
radioactive?
I went for my injection of nuclear isotope today, also known as "gallium". It was a lot easier and quicker than I had imagined. I put two hours of parking on the meter and only used 45 minutes. YOUR WELCOME whoever took my spot after me. :P
I met Jennifer Stock prior to my appointment for some Cora's lunch/brunch. MM MM! eggs benedict and home fries and fruit. YUMMY! it's kind of funny how I dismissed jen as a friend in high school... She's really an incredible person and extremely helpful. THANKS JEN! She was my photographer for the day. The nurse originally wasn't going to let her come back with me, but when I explained my goal, she relaxed and let her come back. wonderful! So attached are the pics of the ordeal.. nuclear medicine... who knew! The actual scan with be thursday.Supposed to take upwards of 4 hours!! holy F**. Sarah will be with me though, I am sure we can make it fun.
I visited with Cara too today. She's so cute and pregnant and her fiance was quite pleasant as well. nice to finally meet him.
I went shopping on the weekend. It felt SOOO good. I need to win a shopping spree. Anyone know anyplace that has a contest for one going on? you know how much that would make my YEAR?! OMG I LOVE TO SHOP. the end.
side note: the clothes and shoes were soooo cute. wait to you see me, HOTTIE! HAHAHA! j/k
Dentist appointment tomorrow with the wonderful Dr. Jennifer Gurney-Ozog. Thanks Jen!
Note to self: do not steam clean the carpet with bleach and no goggles or windows open. My eyes and throat burned for hours.
MUST WALK BUDDY.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Oh the song so sweet
Wow...Who would have thought that little ol' me could make an impression on a class in a mere six weeks time.
My class is incredible. They are going to make fantastic nurses. Any one of them I would be glad to have by my side in a time of need. They came together in this time of need for me, and showed me their colours. To each and every one of them who contributed and came out for some eats, thank you. I never expected anything from any one of them, aside from friendship and support throughout the course. Now, I receive support and friendship throughout my disease. What wonderful people. Not only did I get a wonderful bear to hang onto when I have no one else to cry with, but I received a wonderful blanket to warm myself up with when times are cold and rough. I received candles to light my way and FOOD! where would I be without that wonderful substance. On top of all of this they also gave me an large sum of cash which will come in handy when times are rough. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. If you are reading this, you are all lovely and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. It is all greatly appreciated.
They are not the only ones to help me out during this time. My work (POW Labs) has be incredibly supportive. With most of the 50/50 winners opting to donate their winnings BACK in order to help me. What have I ever done to deserve such support? They not only have chosen to donate half the 50/50 draw to me, but they also raised well over 700$ for me. How incredible? really? I don't think I have ever been so aware of the love I am surrounded with every day until now. Love that isn't even from people who SHOULD love me. Yes, I show up to work every day, do my job to the best of my ability, and stay the overtime that is required. i talk... a lot... but hey, everyone has their faults! To the employees of POW, thank you for being the family I rarely have. Thank you for loving and supporting me even though there has been days where I did not show the love and support that I maybe should have. This whole disease is changing the way I look at the world. It's amazing. It's a wake up call. Thank you for being there for me whenever I need it. Thank you for not firing me the numerous times I THOUGHT you were going to. I guess I am a better employee than I thought.
MOM: Thank you for being there for me. I am sorry that I am short with you, but it is incredibly hard to expect a close relationship with you when you have never been close to me otherwise. You tell me now that you love me, and I think it is solely from fear of losing me. You don't have to be afraid for me, or strong for me. I grew up a long time ago and I am brave, and strong and i am going to beat this. Just you wait and see. Do things with me because you LOVE me, not because you fear you will never be able to do them with me again. Be real, Be true, and Be YOU.
SARAH: I have said it before, and I will say it again. I love you. You are my friend by choice and my sister by heart. If the roles were reversed I would do exactly as you do for me: be there for me no matter what. I realized a long time ago that you are a true friend. a blue friend. There is nothing in this lifetime I want to do without you. Mikayla is so beautiful. So are you. you are an amazing mother and a shining beacon. You make me smile and laugh and forget that I am sick. I can never lose you as a friend. You know too much.
OK, enough with the sappy shit.
OO, interesting: while buddy and I were walking today, i almost stepped on a garter snake. very cool! he was soooo long.
made me realize that a lot of life we spend looking ahead, to the future (in this case, watching for other dogs as buddy was leashless) and not paying attention to what is right infront of us. maybe I need to wake up a little...
Tirah.
My class is incredible. They are going to make fantastic nurses. Any one of them I would be glad to have by my side in a time of need. They came together in this time of need for me, and showed me their colours. To each and every one of them who contributed and came out for some eats, thank you. I never expected anything from any one of them, aside from friendship and support throughout the course. Now, I receive support and friendship throughout my disease. What wonderful people. Not only did I get a wonderful bear to hang onto when I have no one else to cry with, but I received a wonderful blanket to warm myself up with when times are cold and rough. I received candles to light my way and FOOD! where would I be without that wonderful substance. On top of all of this they also gave me an large sum of cash which will come in handy when times are rough. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU. If you are reading this, you are all lovely and I thank you from the bottom of my heart. It is all greatly appreciated.
They are not the only ones to help me out during this time. My work (POW Labs) has be incredibly supportive. With most of the 50/50 winners opting to donate their winnings BACK in order to help me. What have I ever done to deserve such support? They not only have chosen to donate half the 50/50 draw to me, but they also raised well over 700$ for me. How incredible? really? I don't think I have ever been so aware of the love I am surrounded with every day until now. Love that isn't even from people who SHOULD love me. Yes, I show up to work every day, do my job to the best of my ability, and stay the overtime that is required. i talk... a lot... but hey, everyone has their faults! To the employees of POW, thank you for being the family I rarely have. Thank you for loving and supporting me even though there has been days where I did not show the love and support that I maybe should have. This whole disease is changing the way I look at the world. It's amazing. It's a wake up call. Thank you for being there for me whenever I need it. Thank you for not firing me the numerous times I THOUGHT you were going to. I guess I am a better employee than I thought.
MOM: Thank you for being there for me. I am sorry that I am short with you, but it is incredibly hard to expect a close relationship with you when you have never been close to me otherwise. You tell me now that you love me, and I think it is solely from fear of losing me. You don't have to be afraid for me, or strong for me. I grew up a long time ago and I am brave, and strong and i am going to beat this. Just you wait and see. Do things with me because you LOVE me, not because you fear you will never be able to do them with me again. Be real, Be true, and Be YOU.
SARAH: I have said it before, and I will say it again. I love you. You are my friend by choice and my sister by heart. If the roles were reversed I would do exactly as you do for me: be there for me no matter what. I realized a long time ago that you are a true friend. a blue friend. There is nothing in this lifetime I want to do without you. Mikayla is so beautiful. So are you. you are an amazing mother and a shining beacon. You make me smile and laugh and forget that I am sick. I can never lose you as a friend. You know too much.
OK, enough with the sappy shit.
OO, interesting: while buddy and I were walking today, i almost stepped on a garter snake. very cool! he was soooo long.
made me realize that a lot of life we spend looking ahead, to the future (in this case, watching for other dogs as buddy was leashless) and not paying attention to what is right infront of us. maybe I need to wake up a little...
Tirah.
Monday, April 12, 2010
wow, that was a big fat waste of time!
Alright, alright. i haven't updated this thing in a while. I've been busy... walking the dog. etc.
SOOO i finally had my appointment at the London Regional Cancer Centre. April 8th, 12:30PM. WHAT A HUGE WASTE OF MY TIME!
i arrived at the centre at 12, i wanted to pay my ambulance fee while I was there. Went and spoke with the centre first. was informed that i was early (duh!) and i asked where i should go to pay this bill. The woman at the desk directed me to the third floor and off I went.
Returned to the cancer centre right around 12:30. Woman at the desk informed me that the doctors were "about an hour behind". Ok, that's fine. I'm used to that. She handed me clipboard and pen and asked me to fill out "a few questions". Did that, then waited. and waited. Finally was taken by a volunteer to the waiting area to meet with the doctor. I had to fill out some more information and was given a pager.
***side note. funny story. This pager had the looks of a cattle prodder. with two prongs at one end. as I was discussing whether this pager would shock me if I stuck my finger in between the two prongs, i did so and the damn thing went off!! scared the shit right out of me. my mother laughed.***
So I get taken by a lovely nurse for some blood samples. EEEEK! I HATE NEEDLES. ERRRR!
come back to the waiting area and am told that the doctors are "about an hour behind" that I just need to wait for my pager to go off. ok ok. I know.
One o'clock goes by. no page.
Two o'clock goes by. no page.
Three o'clock goes by. no page.
Four o'clock goes by. no page.
FINALLY around 4:30 I am paged to go into a room. asked to remove everything but my underwear and bra, and get into a gown. i asked the nurse how she knew i was wearing any... LOL! so wait for the doctor. Doctor i meet, is not the doctor i had an appointment with... strange i know.
OH WELL!
SOOO he asked me if I knew why i was there. Well ya, I have cancer. Duh. then he asked me if I could tell him anything about my cancer. I told him everything I knew. How long treatment usually is (6-8 months) the type of chemotherapy I will be receiving (ABVD) and that i would be requiring more scans. He told me that obviously he didnt need to tell me anything, said I will need a few more scans before my next appointment and sent me home... WTF?
this is life.
On a happy note, i think, my dog has me whipped. We're been going for two hour long walks almost every day. just putting him outside to run around doesnt cut it. he wants a car ride and a walk.. we've found some really nice trails in the area. keeps me active too. I miss work. boo!
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