"Just a Horse"

From time to time, people tell me, 'lighten up, it's just a horse,' or, 'that's a lot of money for just a horse'. They don't understand the distance traveled, the time spent, or the costs involved for 'just a horse.'
Some of my proudest moments have come about with 'just a horse.' Many hours have passed and my only company was 'just a horse,' but I did not once feel slighted.
Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by 'just a horse,' and in those days of darkness, the gentle touch of 'just a horse' gave me comfort and reason to overcome the dark.
Those who think it's 'just a horse,' probably also use phrases like 'just a friend,' 'just a sunrise,' or 'just a promise.' 'Just a horse' brings into my life the very essence of friendship, trust, and pure unbridled joy. 'Just a horse' brings out the compassion and patience that makes me a better person.
Because of 'just a horse' I rise early, take long walks, and look longingly to the future. So for me and folks like me, it's not 'just a horse' but an embodiment of all the hopes and dreams of the future, the fond memories of the past, and the pure joy of the moment.
'Just a horse' brings out what's good in me and diverts my thoughts away from myself and the worries of the day.
I hope that someday others have the opportunity to understand that it's not 'just a horse' but the thing that gives me humanity and keeps me from being 'just a woman.'
So the next time you hear the phrase 'just a horse,' smile. You are one of the blessed few who understands.

-Author Unknown-

I thought I would post this poem today as i've been told many times along the way that I spend too much money on P. That P takes too much of my "precious time" (no pun intended), That my life should not revolve around a single horse. To that I say my life is forever changed and enriched because of that single horse. She brings to me happiness that I could not find embodied in anything other than her. We communicate on a level that only we can understand. She provides me with unconditional love. I know, without a doubt, that i can trust her with anything and that our partnership is not one that can ever be broken. I am a better person just by knowing her. Only few will ever understand the bond between me and "just a horse".

I have yet to hear anything from the cancer centre regarding my scan. I will call them monday as I hate waiting around. What the hell is the hold up? I am more than half tempted to just go back to work. I am getting bored and irritated just waiting around.

I went to the states last weekend. Was quite funny I set off alarms at the border because of my nuclear isotopes that had been injected a week prior. Danielle and i ate at Olive Garden (my first time) OMG SO yummy. I'd definitely go back again.
Went for Dinner with Tyrone, aka "vin" on thursday. Applebee's. Yum. :) all my other plans for the week fell through because of one reason or another. Weather, timing, illness.

I've been feeling rather awful this week. Also been having some serious issues with my hip. It's now causing my leg to give out randomly. Usually when i go from a seated or lying position to standing and walking. It almost feels like the blood is taking too long to get to my muscles and my leg just gives out. Hopefully this problem is solved once treatment starts.