I swear, I haven't been this stressed ever in my life. I think I've cried about six times today. Why do I have to be sick? WHY ME?
I talked to a woman yesterday who had the same staging/treatment regime as I will be receiving. She told me that when all was said and done she had spent FOURTY-SIX THOUSAND DOLLARS on medication. Are you freaking kidding me?! I can't afford that. My work only covers up to 5000$ a year... I just want to stop now. I want to stop worrying about how I am going to make rent, and pay for groceries. My insurance on my car went up: if I want to drive insured it's going to cost me 199.68 a month. Seriously? like, seriously? FML AND I have a good record!!
I never thought i'd ever say this again in my life (I was once in a very dark place) but I really, REALLY, REALLY.... REALLY HATE MY LIFE. If it wasn't for "P" I don't know what I would do. That horse has saved my life too many times. But now she's mysteriously head shy. my life sucks. For all who ever wished to be me, DON'T.
Anyone have the winning lotto numbers for me?
FML.
The end.
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